Its been too long
@ 9:51 PM
gahh, so long never blog.. lets see, i have MANY MANY things to blog about.
1)day before syf
was so stressful, man, i cant believe that so soon after i entered a new school, they have already seen me at my most vulnerable moment. gosh! well, nth more i can say, since all the angst is gone now, at this time
2)syf
so schocked to see nesh there! gosh, anyway, hate myself for screwing up. it was SO scary. but we did it! SILVER. i noe it oisnt sth to be so happy about, but other then screwing up one part, i did my BEST. so, im happy. but i think the lat judge who refuses to give us the one more point IS A BITCH! SERIOUSLY! c'mon man, its torture!
3) Tests
i screwed up BADLY! gotta work harder. thats all i can say now
4) others
i feel like total crap. i wan sangee n jaan n ayesha n aqila in teh same school as me, i want to be able to run to the first classroom witha math question. i wanna hear more stories about sangee n her nonsense. i wanna hear the psycho laughter. i want alll that. but i cant get it. i miss ayesha. i wanna look at her, watever man face. goshhhh... i feel like a bitch. i AM a bitch actually. with the actions and thoughts i have. bleah. i hate myself.
prabu's birthday was FUNNNN! hahahha
i miss SOMEONE badly now. wen can i admit to u that i have fallen for u, ur eyse n ur heart. i want answers now. but im afraid
wad a coward i am. sux man, sux!
i love me life, but i hate thway im living it.
on a higher note, CANT WAIT TO GET MY NEW FONE!!
gahh, even that isnt cheering me up.
PI SUX!
fuck lah, i fucking hate u!
(*that felt good!)
Love is patient, love is kind, love can drive u outta your mind
